I am a single leaf high up in the branches of an oak tree...

Drivefest 2002
Could I have DONE more driving/being on the road this weekend?!?!? Goodness...thank goodness it wasn't all done in one car or else we'd have to put the poor thing out of its misery. Let's start w/ friday, when I spent 1 1/2 hours in gridlock on the way to LA for a birthday dinner, which was in SHERMAN OAKS...another 35-40 minute drive. So went back to my friend's place that nite and crashed, and then went to see my folks on Saturday morning. We end up going to PANORAMA CITY, which, wasn't too loaded w/ traffic but after lunch on the way back, was a nightmare. What was only a 25 minute drive there took 2 hours to get back...yikes! So after that I had to quickly pack my things and head to OC, cuz I was already running late for a birthday in HB. But I had to pick up my roomate and another friend to go there, which tacked on an extra 20 minutes to my already 1 hour plus drive from LA. So we go to HB, where the whole world decided to go that day, because parking was almost impossible to find. Spent some time there before going back to Irvine and heading out to RIVERSIDE for my roomies sister's birthday. From there it was on to TEMECULA, and then to San Diego, and BACK to RIVERSIDE. By this time it was already 4AM and I still had to drive back to IRVINE. Needless to say I was damn tired....what a weekend. Sunday, thank goodness didn't involve much driving, and I hope I vow never to do that much car traveling(back and forth and here and there-type of travel), EVER!!!

Self-deprivation
You know, we always talk about how people never realize what they have and that we always take things for granted, but we never talk about how we don't give ourselves enough credit for anything. Personally speaking, I think one of the biggest mistakes we make is that we take OURSELVES for granted. People in general, either give themselves far too little credit, or none at all. And I have to admit that saddens me, and I guess frustrates me a little bit. People have so much potential and with every success they take a step forward and come closer to that realization that they are truly special. But every time they refuse to see that untapped potential, they are moving further and further away and closer into the abyss where self-doubt and chaos rule. I just that more often, people would take a second to look at themselves in the mirror and realize what a beautiful blessed, child of God they are...


Recent Developments
We hung out again...and it was a lot of fun, as usual...jamba juice, a movie...umm, make that 3 movies...and great conversation. I still get nervous around her, but I wasn't in the whole "What do I wear?" stage anymore...that was rather silly... And I'm sure she had fun too. Still, I don't know exactly what she's thinking. Yes, yes, be patient, I know, I know...and believe me, I AM. I'm walking on eggshells here making sure I don't do anything rash or come off too strong or anything like that. But it would be nice to know what was goin on in HER head. I mean, I don't get negative signs, but I just don't like uncertainty I guess...

Lessons for the day:
-Always be on the lookout for 200 lb people trying to jump on you...
-Never second-guess making a bet in Pai Gow...
-Don't drive 700 miles in 48 hours...

"There are only two ways to live your life. One as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
-Albert Einstein